These words of Nancy Wood (Nancy C. Wood, Doubleday, 1974) seem strangely comforting:
Monday, June 30, 2014
Hold on to what is good...
There are some days that you miss a loved one so much, that the pain becomes unbearable. Every little mundane task of life seems to monumental to go through and no matter where you turn, everything serves a constant reminder of the one you are missing. Pretty yellow flowers I see on my way to the park everyday sting like thorns today; going "outshide" as Arnav used to say just seemed so hard today. He loved the breeze blowing in his face but the same breeze brought tears to my eyes as it lightly touched my face this evening. The why and why not's of wishful thinking overtake my entire existence. There are days when life seems content but never complete and I think I just have to learn to live this way.
These words of Nancy Wood (Nancy C. Wood, Doubleday, 1974) seem strangely comforting:
Hold on to what is good
even if it is
a handful of earth.
Hold on to what you believe
even if it is
a tree which stands by itself.
Hold on to what you must do
even if it is
a long way from here.
Hold on to life even when
it is easier letting go.
Hold on to my hand even when
I have gone away from you.
I hold you dear, in my heart, but yearn so much to hold you in my arms. Just wish this one wish of my heart comes true...soon.
Arnav's mom
These words of Nancy Wood (Nancy C. Wood, Doubleday, 1974) seem strangely comforting:
Saturday, December 29, 2012
I wish ....
If I could,
I would,
Hide behind a wall of words,
where raw emotions can be hidden,
hurt ego's can be buried,
and everything still seems glorious.
If I could,
I would,
bury myself in happy thoughts,
where painful conversations do not happen,
misunderstandings can be circumvented,
and cold snares sidelined.
If I could,
I would,
bask under a gentle sun,
wrapped gently in soft sunlight,
where thunderstorms and dark clouds do not exist,
and puddles of sorrow simply evaporate.
If I could,
I would,
watch an endless meadow of golden flowers,
sway gently in the breeze,
where no sudden bursts of harsh winds,
break the peace and tranquility.
If I could,
I would,
wipe away the pain from the depths of my heart,
where wounds are un-healing, and ever-gnawing,
and I forever carry the baggage of heart-wrenching memories.
If I could,
I would,
lay in dreamy stupor,
where life is forever beautiful,
and I'm never awakened by the rude awakenings of life.
If I could,
I would,
I wish,
I just wish,
that I could.
~ Simple wishes from a mom's heart
I would,
Hide behind a wall of words,
where raw emotions can be hidden,
hurt ego's can be buried,
and everything still seems glorious.
If I could,
I would,
bury myself in happy thoughts,
where painful conversations do not happen,
misunderstandings can be circumvented,
and cold snares sidelined.
If I could,
I would,
bask under a gentle sun,
wrapped gently in soft sunlight,
where thunderstorms and dark clouds do not exist,
and puddles of sorrow simply evaporate.
If I could,
I would,
watch an endless meadow of golden flowers,
sway gently in the breeze,
where no sudden bursts of harsh winds,
break the peace and tranquility.
If I could,
I would,
wipe away the pain from the depths of my heart,
where wounds are un-healing, and ever-gnawing,
and I forever carry the baggage of heart-wrenching memories.
If I could,
I would,
lay in dreamy stupor,
where life is forever beautiful,
and I'm never awakened by the rude awakenings of life.
If I could,
I would,
I wish,
I just wish,
that I could.
~ Simple wishes from a mom's heart
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
To my son, my strength,
on his Seventh Birthday!
Arnav turned seven on May 12, 2012. Although his birthday is long gone, my heart yearns to send him birthday wishes, yet again today, in the hope that he will get them, wherever he may be.
Seven little candles,
lit Oh so perfectly!
Seven little flames,
danced in the wind gently.
An eager birthday wish,
just waiting to be voiced,
A delicately yellow birthday cake,
just waiting to be sliced.
A happy birthday song,
just waiting to be sung.
A birthday surprise,
just waiting to be sprung.
All things big and small,
are awaiting you my dear.
We are waiting for you,
every moment, every day, every year.
And till you return ....
We'll blow your birthday candles,
but with a sigh.
We'll sing you a birthday song,
with a tear in the eye.
We'll cut your birthday cake,
with a heaviness in the heart.
But somewhere deep inside,
there is a hope that won't depart.
Maybe ....
Next year, you'll be here,
to celebrate your special day.
To make a special birthday wish,
as your blow your candles away!
And we'll sing a birthday song,
merrily, happily, delightfully!
And that'll truly be a "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" ,
as happy as it can be!
Happy Birthday, Dear Arnav !!!
Love always,
Mummy, Papa, Aarav
on his Seventh Birthday!
Arnav turned seven on May 12, 2012. Although his birthday is long gone, my heart yearns to send him birthday wishes, yet again today, in the hope that he will get them, wherever he may be.
Seven little candles,
lit Oh so perfectly!
Seven little flames,
danced in the wind gently.
An eager birthday wish,
just waiting to be voiced,
A delicately yellow birthday cake,
just waiting to be sliced.
A happy birthday song,
just waiting to be sung.
A birthday surprise,
just waiting to be sprung.
All things big and small,
are awaiting you my dear.
We are waiting for you,
every moment, every day, every year.
And till you return ....
We'll blow your birthday candles,
but with a sigh.
We'll sing you a birthday song,
with a tear in the eye.
We'll cut your birthday cake,
with a heaviness in the heart.
But somewhere deep inside,
there is a hope that won't depart.
Maybe ....
Next year, you'll be here,
to celebrate your special day.
To make a special birthday wish,
as your blow your candles away!
And we'll sing a birthday song,
merrily, happily, delightfully!
And that'll truly be a "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" ,
as happy as it can be!
Happy Birthday, Dear Arnav !!!
Love always,
Mummy, Papa, Aarav
Friday, May 13, 2011
I'm six today !!
May 12, 2011
Arnav is six years old today !! Happy birthday to dear, Arnav!
I cannot believe that my little Arnav would have been six years old today (actually yesterday- May 12). I was thinking to myself, 'Why do I want to update his blog, I'm not even sure if anyone reads it anymore; after all I don't update it anymore'.
And then, I log in today to find comments from two friends, one well known, one I've never know, yet Arnav brings us together. Once more, my special miracle has strenghtened my belief that there is goodness out there, you just need to have the eye for it.
Sarah: Thanks for thinking about Arnav and us.
Chitra: I am so moved by your words. Thank you.
Arnav seems to bring out the very best in me and helps me seek the same in others. Every now and then, when I am having a rough day, I ask him to guide me with his wisdom, grant me some of his patience, and his ability to see through the darkest days. And it works, each time! It's like he's right next to me and hears every word I say to him.
On your special day, my dear, I have so much to say, but cannot find the words to say that,
"You are near me,
I know that,
but you feel so far,
that it breaks my heart.
I come to see you everyday,
though it never seems enough,
But the day I miss seeing you,
that day is surely rough.
If I could lay the words side by side,
Of all the things I want to say to you,
I'm sure they'll stretch all the way up to heaven,
And right to you.
And you'll come flying in my arms,
Just like old times,
And we'll be together again,
Together forever, this time.
Missing you more than ever, my dear, Arnav. I hope you enjoyed your cake. Happy Boo to you!
I'll always be there for you.
~Mummy
~Papa and Aarav
Arnav is six years old today !! Happy birthday to dear, Arnav!
I cannot believe that my little Arnav would have been six years old today (actually yesterday- May 12). I was thinking to myself, 'Why do I want to update his blog, I'm not even sure if anyone reads it anymore; after all I don't update it anymore'.
And then, I log in today to find comments from two friends, one well known, one I've never know, yet Arnav brings us together. Once more, my special miracle has strenghtened my belief that there is goodness out there, you just need to have the eye for it.
Sarah: Thanks for thinking about Arnav and us.
Chitra: I am so moved by your words. Thank you.
Arnav seems to bring out the very best in me and helps me seek the same in others. Every now and then, when I am having a rough day, I ask him to guide me with his wisdom, grant me some of his patience, and his ability to see through the darkest days. And it works, each time! It's like he's right next to me and hears every word I say to him.
On your special day, my dear, I have so much to say, but cannot find the words to say that,
"You are near me,
I know that,
but you feel so far,
that it breaks my heart.
I come to see you everyday,
though it never seems enough,
But the day I miss seeing you,
that day is surely rough.
If I could lay the words side by side,
Of all the things I want to say to you,
I'm sure they'll stretch all the way up to heaven,
And right to you.
And you'll come flying in my arms,
Just like old times,
And we'll be together again,
Together forever, this time.
Missing you more than ever, my dear, Arnav. I hope you enjoyed your cake. Happy Boo to you!
I'll always be there for you.
~Mummy
~Papa and Aarav
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Happy Boo (Birthday) , Arnav
It's Happy Birthday time again,
Yet another year has slipped by.
I'm going to be a big boy this year,
I'm turning five!
Aarav's going to cut my cake,
and offer me a slice.
He'll blow out each little candle for me,
One, Two, Three, Four, Five!
Five sweetest wishes, just for me,
Come flying through the miles.
Come sing "Happy Boo to me",
As I turn five.
Happy Birthday, dear Arnav. Missing you a lot on your special day (May 12) and all the possiblities that might have been if you were here today. We'll miss you always.
Love,
Mummy, Papa, Aarav
Yet another year has slipped by.
I'm going to be a big boy this year,
I'm turning five!
Aarav's going to cut my cake,
and offer me a slice.
He'll blow out each little candle for me,
One, Two, Three, Four, Five!
Five sweetest wishes, just for me,
Come flying through the miles.
Come sing "Happy Boo to me",
As I turn five.
Happy Birthday, dear Arnav. Missing you a lot on your special day (May 12) and all the possiblities that might have been if you were here today. We'll miss you always.
Love,
Mummy, Papa, Aarav
Friday, October 02, 2009
Happy Boo Papa
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
STRANGE AND HUMDRUM
ARE THE WAYS OF LIFE.
THE BONDS OF THE HEART,
ARE THE HURTING TIES.
WHAT MEANT MOST TO ME
IS TODAY SO FAR,
SO FAR ARE YOU MY DEAR
I'M SCARED IN MY HEART.
I WISH I COULD FLY THE MILLION MILES,
AND BE WITH YOU ,
EVEN FOR JUST A MOMEMT ,
SO I CAN TELL YOU -- MY BABY, I REALLY MISS YOU!
Missing you more than ever, Arnav. You'll be in our hearts forever.
~ Arnav and Aarav's mom.
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