I wish ....

If I could,
I would,
Hide behind a wall of words,
where raw emotions can be hidden,
hurt ego's can be buried,
and everything still seems glorious.

If I could,
I would,
bury myself in happy thoughts,
where painful conversations do not happen,
misunderstandings can be circumvented,
and cold snares sidelined.

If I could,
I would,
bask under a gentle sun,
wrapped gently in soft sunlight,
where thunderstorms and dark clouds do not exist,
and puddles of sorrow simply evaporate.

If I could,
I would,
watch an endless meadow of golden flowers,
sway gently in the breeze,
where no sudden bursts of harsh winds,
break the peace and tranquility.

If I could,
I would,
wipe away the pain from the depths of my heart,
where wounds are un-healing, and ever-gnawing,
and I forever carry the baggage of heart-wrenching memories.

If I could,
I would,
lay in dreamy stupor,
where life is forever beautiful,
and I'm never awakened by the rude awakenings of life.

If I could,
I would,
I wish,
I just wish,
that I could.

~ Simple wishes from a mom's heart

To my son, my strength,
 on his Seventh Birthday!

Arnav turned seven on May 12, 2012. Although his birthday is long gone, my heart yearns to send him birthday wishes, yet again today, in the hope that he will get them, wherever he may be.

Seven little candles,
   lit Oh so perfectly!
Seven little flames,
   danced in the wind gently.

An eager birthday wish,
   just waiting to be voiced,
A delicately yellow birthday cake,
   just waiting to be sliced.

A happy birthday song,
    just waiting to be sung.
A birthday surprise,
    just waiting to be sprung.

All things big and small,
    are awaiting you my dear.
We are waiting for you,
    every moment, every day, every year.

And till you return ....

We'll blow your birthday candles,
     but with a sigh.
We'll sing you a birthday song,
    with a tear in the eye.

We'll cut your birthday cake,
      with a heaviness in the heart.
But somewhere deep inside,
       there is a hope that won't depart.

Maybe ....

Next year, you'll be here,
      to celebrate your special day.
To make a special birthday wish,
    as your blow your candles away!

And we'll sing a birthday song,
    merrily, happily, delightfully!
And that'll truly be a "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" ,
   as happy as it can be!

Happy Birthday, Dear Arnav !!!

Love always,

Mummy, Papa, Aarav

I'm six today !!

May 12, 2011

Arnav is six years old today !! Happy birthday to dear, Arnav!



I cannot believe that my little Arnav would have been six years old today (actually yesterday- May 12). I was thinking to myself, 'Why do I want to update his blog, I'm not even sure if anyone reads it anymore; after all I don't update it anymore'.

And then, I log in today to find comments from two friends, one well known, one I've never know, yet Arnav brings us together. Once more, my special miracle has strenghtened my belief that there is goodness out there, you just need to have the eye for it.

Sarah: Thanks for thinking about Arnav and us.
Chitra: I am so moved by your words. Thank you.

Arnav seems to bring out the very best in me and helps me seek the same in others. Every now and then, when I am having a rough day, I ask him to guide me with his wisdom, grant me some of his patience, and his ability to see through the darkest days. And it works, each time! It's like he's right next to me and hears every word I say to him.

On your special day, my dear, I have so much to say, but cannot find the words to say that,

"You are near me,
I know that,
but you feel so far,
that it breaks my heart.

I come to see you everyday,
though it never seems enough,
But the day I miss seeing you,
that day is surely rough.

If I could lay the words side by side,
Of all the things I want to say to you,
I'm sure they'll stretch all the way up to heaven,
And right to you.

And you'll come flying in my arms,
Just like old times,
And we'll be together again,
Together forever, this time.

Missing you more than ever, my dear, Arnav. I hope you enjoyed your cake. Happy Boo to you!

I'll always be there for you.

~Mummy
~Papa and Aarav

Happy Boo (Birthday) , Arnav

It's Happy Birthday time again,
Yet another year has slipped by.
I'm going to be a big boy this year,
I'm turning five!

Aarav's going to cut my cake,
and offer me a slice.
He'll blow out each little candle for me,
One, Two, Three, Four, Five!

Five sweetest wishes, just for me,
Come flying through the miles.
Come sing "Happy Boo to me",
As I turn five.

Happy Birthday, dear Arnav. Missing you a lot on your special day (May 12) and all the possiblities that might have been if you were here today. We'll miss you always.

Love,
Mummy, Papa, Aarav

Happy Boo Papa

Happy boo (birthday) to you,

Happy boo (birthday) to you,

Happy boo (birthday) to you,

Happy boo (birthday) to you !!

Happy boo (birthday) dear Papa.

Lots of love,

Arnav and Aarav

STRANGE AND HUMDRUM

ARE THE WAYS OF LIFE.

THE BONDS OF THE HEART,

ARE THE HURTING TIES.

WHAT MEANT MOST TO ME

IS TODAY SO FAR,

SO FAR ARE YOU MY DEAR

I'M SCARED IN MY HEART.

I WISH I COULD FLY THE MILLION MILES,

AND BE WITH YOU ,

EVEN FOR JUST A MOMEMT ,

SO I CAN TELL YOU -- MY BABY, I REALLY MISS YOU!

Missing you more than ever, Arnav. You'll be in our hearts forever.

~ Arnav and Aarav's mom.

A Father's day message -- for my dear Papa

I missed "Father's Day" last year,

And I missed you even more.

It hurt to be so far away from you,

The wounds were still very sore.



So I slipped the day all together,

thinking it may hurt no more.

But I still missed you,

In fact, I missed you even more.



So this year I made sure,

I did not miss "Father's Day".

I want your day to be so special,

that I sent a little messenger your way.



Aarav is Arnav's little messenger --

I sent him to remind you of the lovely dad-son moments we shared.

I asked him to tell you,

That I still love you and I still care.



So even though I'm not there to say,

"My Daddy, you're the best!"

Arnav and Aarav want to wish you

A extra ordinary Father's day - a day filled with the world's very best!!



Happy Father's Day !!



Love,



Chota Arnav and an even chota Aarav

I'm a big brother now !!

Hey there,

I know its been a while since my last post but I have some great news to share. I am a big brother now. And better still I am the big brother of a very handsome and cute baby boy (he's following my footsteps). We all decided that since he wsa so similar to me in all aspects : appearance ( see photo below) and proximity of birthdays, his name should be similar to mine too. My baby bother is called Aarav.

Here are some interesting facts about us:

ARNAV

Birthday : May 12
Bithweight : 5lbs 5oz
Birth Length: 19 in.
Looks: Handsome and cute

AARAV

Birthday : May 05
Bithweight : 7lbs 2oz ( he beat my score here)
Birth Length: 19 in.
Looks: Handsome and cute (He's already trying to copy me).

Here are two pitures -- One is me and the other is Aarav. Try to guess who is who before peeking at the captions?

This is big brother... ARNAV ( I mean me...)

and this is my litte brother.. AARAV.

Please welcome AARAV to planet earth and I'll keep you posted on all the things he's up to.

See ya..

ARNAV

Change of address: Delivered to Heaven

Hi everyone,

I wanted to let you all know that I have moved. I tried really hard but my little body was very tired and I had to let it take some rest. I am safe here in heaven and my little body is peacefully resting in Baby Sequoia-land at Oak Hill Memorial in San Jose. However, I am still around all of you in spirit and you can still see me smiling when you visit me. I will always live on in your memories.

However, I do want to make a request to all of you. I wish I could have got my transplant sooner. That way I could have been at home with Mummy and Papa than being in heaven; I have to admit I would have loved being with all of you. Anyway, there are many of my friends who still need organs and they are still on the transplant waiting lists. The only way they can go home to their families and be happy is if they can get a transplant, in time. But there is an acute shortage of organs and hence the waiting lists are extremely long. And even though me and my other friends all want to stay strong and continue our battles, sometimes it is too hard for us. That's when we have to relocate to heaven.

The good news is that all of you can help by signing up for organ donation. My doctors at Stanford told me that each person who agrees to donate his/her organs can save multiple lives and bring hope and smiles to many families. Here is the link if you’d like to sing up online: https://www.donatelifecalifornia.org/register/.

On my end, I am convincing all my new friends here to convey the same message to their friends and family. And we all feel that our message must come in strong. Karthik Uncle who works in the same office aPapa is also helping me to spread this message. Karthik Uncle and his team Slow as Molasses are helping me to spread this message by participating in a relay race on April 19 and 20 that will help to raise money and awareness for Organ Donation. Please cheer Karthik Uncle and his team and support this cause.

Well that’s it from me for now. And by the way this is probably the only serious message you're going to get from me. I'm too fun a person to do thing in a serious manner. Everyone who knows me will vouch for that.

Catch you later. Live life Arnav style !

To be or not to be ?

Did you ever wonder what you were going to be when you "finally" grow up? Well, it may be a litle early for me; some of you may say that, but I am already exploring my options:
"To be or not to be,
basically what should I be
when I finally grow up."

I am in a real dilemma and I thought the best way to decide was to give each thing a try.

Here are the options I am considering : doctor, entertainment, or juggling. Watch me in action and give me some feedback.

And here is another one; let me know what you think I am best at?

Still thinking.

~Arnav

Hallo Hallo

Hallo Everyone,

Oh! the perils of modern age and the constant need for connectivity. I truly wonder how people survived in the dark ages.

Look what a bad phone and bad connectivity can do to you. And this is just make believe. Imagine if this happened to you ....................





~Just pondering..
Arnav

Just Chilling : Check me out

Well, I was caught in action: JUST CHILLING OUT !!!!!!!!!!

Check out how cool I look.



Enjoy.

~Arnav

News Update: I went to see Clifford too !!

I went to the Zoo... come share the fun !!

Riding the wave.... on my tricycle... the first time ever.

Hey Everyone,

I rode my tricycle for the first time last week and it was a great experience. We went up and down the hill outside my house and I loved it. I tried hard to get my feet on the foot rests but they just wouldn't stay in the same place..... Kept going up and down..... but I loved the cool breeze in my face.

Watch me in action here....

Here Papa is teaching me the ins and outs of riding my tricycle.

Testing the waters on my own.... and I did quite alright.

Doing even better here... i moved on my own just a teeny tiny bit.

Me and Papa taking a little break..... and mummy cut Papa's head off .... just in the picture.

And its back now.... all's well and I'm a happy camper on my bike.

Learning new tricks everyday.

~Arnav

Dance with the Mastero: ME !!!

Hello,

This is the nighlty scene in the Kalra household. After 11:00 pm I am wide awake and its time to PARTTTTTTTT..............YYYYYYYYY !!!

My favourite song is Dhadak Dhadak from Bunty and Bubli and you can catch me dancing to this song each night. Not only do I dance but I also am able to get Mom and Dad to dance too. I extended the "Everybody Dances Rule" to everybody.


Enjoy this demononstation !!!

~ Dhadak Dhadak Arnav

Slide Show for my 2nd birthday!

Hello everyone,

Enjoy the pictures for my 2nd birthday. I had a great time as you will see. Thanks to everyone who made my day special both by their presence and the wonderful gifts they brought.

Enjoy.

~ A Big Boy now : Arnav

New Chatterbox on the Block

Hey Everyone....

Welcome to a new 2007 from me . So whats new at my end... well I'm quite a chatter box now. I can say a multitude of words and here is a partial check list of all I can say: (I'm quite a mix of Hindi, English and gibberish for now!)

My all time favorites are :

1. Buh-bye


2. Hiiiiiiiiiiiii


3. Papa ( I'm an ardent fan of my papa !)


4. Mumma ( for Mommy )


5. Ball


6. Teddy


7. Car


8. Table


9. Chair


10. Yellow (This is my favorite color....... atleast for now)


11. Purple ( Just to add another one to my color list)


12. Train


13. Teddy


14. Jump..up ( although it sounds like Jumpa ..... but you know what I mean !)


15. Shoo ( for shoes)


16. Uppar ( for up)


17. Down ( for down bhai .. )


18. Baang (for close)


19. Khool ( for open )
    


20. Ttttttttttt ( for TV)


21. Elmo (My favorite cartoon for now ... )
    


22. Car ( although we have a mini van.... but car is easier to say !)
    

Well the list can go on and on .... but this was just to give you a glimpse of what I can do. There is no substitute for an in-person interaction. If you would like to meet me , call my Mumma on the cone ( sorry ..... everyone else says Phone ) and set a time to see me, me , me ( Just a habit from my poem .. Pat a cake ) !!

Buh-bye !!

~ Chattering away for now

Arnav

Check out my Slide Show: January 2007

Could not get any cuter than this !!

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!

This is my latest way to greet everyone I know. I have used it in the written print many times but the vocalization is new to me and hence more special. So this is a special Hi to all of you. It's unbelievable that another year is qucikly drawing to a close. Its almost time to say "B-Bye 2006 and Welcome 2007". I will keep you posted on how we welcomed 2007.

So what else is new? My mom says that I am getting cuter by the day and yet she says "He cannot get any cuter than this !" I wonder which of the two statements are true. If I get cuter everyday, then I will be even cuter tomorrow and yet she says I cannot get any cuter. Women !!! No wonder Papa says that women are hard to understand. They certainly don't make much sense and this comes from a baby ( universal shield for now) . Mom, stop confusing me and make up your mind.

Here are some snap shots if any one would dare to question what my mom says or even agree with her if you like.

As for me:

Cute, cuter, cutest.........
No matter what you say......
As long as I get a compliment....
Happy is my day !!!

Kela le lo, Angoor le lo, bahut meeta hai bibiji ! Sirf 200 Rs. Kilo !!

Ek pineapple de do behenji, bahut badiya hai. 20 Rs. kam de do !

Yeh to sirf sample hai. Maal kal internet delivery se aayega !! Smile, smile !

Oh ! Oh ! Paise lene se pehele batana tha..... sorry baba .... too late . Ab to delivery comfirm ho gaye hai.

Yeh , sara mal bik gaya. Lots of money for some Christmas shopping !!

Ab thoda Aaraam ..... bahut kaam ho gaya aaj ke leye !!

Yeh mera business look hai. Nice hai na !!

Mummy hato na.... Dekhne do ki yeh fruit kaisa hai !

1,2,3 Check ...... pineapple andar sab theek hai na !

Mummy, yeh already bik gaya hai. Sorry nahin milega ! Akhir ethics bhi to koi cheez hai.

Pyar ki bribe nahin chalege. Hato !

Wahan se daal nahin gali to yahan se koshish .....

Mummy, Papa ko bhi nahin doonga although I do appear to be handing him something. Yeh sab media ka trick hai. Maine pineapple nahin diya !

Uff..... thak gaya main. Enough for now. Moooooooooooommy !!

Talk to you later......

~ Arnav